hannah hayat

at this point in time, i have all but abandoned the reading. it makes no sense to me. to read a book without any context or instruction is simply a futile way to spend my time. i want to be able to read it, trust me i do, but the amount of time i would have to spend trying to piece it together i doubt would be worth the reward. i really do hope that i can get an S in this class anyways, because oh lord do i need it to graduate next week. how are you doing professor? times are tough these days for everyone. i hope all is well. i am making progress on my project and am excited to upload a post with all of my work together.

 To whom it may concern, I regret to inform you that my art, specifically my project The Absurd is absolutely and utterly meaningless. I have no muse, no mentor, no patron saint, and definitely do not have a "why." I beg to ask the question, why must art have a why? can artists be allowed to create even if the plaque next to their piece simply states "I created this because I wanted to"? It doesnt matter to me if people feel the need to find meaning in my art, because i dont. i create because i want to create and for all i care my next collage could be my dogs feces on a canvas and if i call it my art than it is my art.

Now most of this reading was pretentious gibberish to me, but one sentence caught my eye; "It is through the death of the social that socialism will emerge..." This quote to me indicates that the writer is coming from a very american perspective, one that i tend to hold critically. honestly, i thought i would have more to say on that quote, but i really don't. in my education classes i have learned that it doesn't matter if you know every word in a sentence, if you don't have the correct background knowledge on the topic your brain will not be able to bridge the gap between the words and create meaning. the text lacked meaning to me because i lack background on the topic, and thus words that should mean something turn into alphabet soup on the page.

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"The Disneyland imaginary is neither true nor false; it is a deterrence machine set up in order to rejuvenate in reverse the fiction of the real" I have always been fascinated by my mothers obsession with Disneyland. Before completing this reading, i had always assumed it added up to the desire for an escape from reality. I now see that it is both an escape from reality and an invitation into reality (both the realities we acknowledge and the ones we do not see clearly).  I decided to pull my mom into the conversation between me and the text and get her thoughts on it. She agreed that the phenomenon of Disneyland, it being both out of this world and down to earth, is exactly what makes it so special. The kind of connection people feel to Disneyland only exists because of this juxtaposition.

"the museum, instead of being circumscribed in a geometrical location, is now everywhere, like a dimension of life itself." -baurdrillard 16 this section of Simulations  had me thinking about museums and the things humans claim are valuable. baudrillard claims that without stockpiling the past, humans lose their lineage and their culture, which i don't think i agree with. human beings are such fluid creatures, constantly changing each moment, maybe letting go of the past would provide for a more successful future. hell, we've been stockpiling for centuries but look where that got us these days... "...everything is dead and risen in the past..." baudrillard 13 also got my gears going about if our lives are already predestined, which makes this class and these readings pretty amusing to me.